A Longing….

November 30, 2010 - One Response

A longing for God’s love.
There is no greater love than His…

Though people can search the whole world for that love, none can even amount to the intensity of the love that God has for us.

None can comprehend, the love that was so freely given by God that Jesus died on the cross for our sins engraving our names on His hands after taking the weight of our sins and burdens on the cross. The weight that was so heavy but was beared on the cross for the sake of the world. So that we may be reconciled to God.

The only love that fills my cup and makes if overflow, the only love that touches my heart like a lover touches his/her partners cheek, the only love that was so great that a king would lay down His life for His people.

His love covers all of our sins.

I cannot write on this blog forever, but I know one thing… We won’t be needing to blog about His love next time. Because, a blog cannot hold the many words that describe His love for us…

8:09 a.m.
30th of November.
Woke up to the bright sunlight shining in my face, thinking of what to in the morning, thought of starting my morning with God.
Comments: Always a better plan. Greater things are yet to come, greater things are still to be done in this city… That city is each and everyone of us… For we the people make the city.. The city wouldn’t be a city without people….

I may sound deep sometimes, but I love being deep…

I just want you, Jesus.

C=

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Back on track?

May 13, 2010 - Leave a Response

Haven’t been blogging, lately….

I haven’t been disciplined,
I haven’t been self-controlled,
I haven’t been obedient,
I haven’t been loving,
I haven’t been kind…

Most of all, I haven’t been Glorifying The Lord, My God….
I’m so sorry, Lord. Please forgive me…. I am weak…
The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
There’s only one sailing ship out off this miserable island.
Its the SS Js. Christ.

All aboard? Gonna sail that path?
Tough question, huh? When I, a human always wanting control.

Always wanna know what comes next.
Always planning what comes next.
Always wanting to feel comfortable.
Always wanna please myself.
Always thinking I know what’s best.

On that path,
There will be thunderstorms,
There will be hurricanes,
There will be sleepless nights,
There will be hard labour,
We think we know what’s best for the ship,
Only the Captain knows what’s best,
We serve ourselves,
When we are supposed to serve the Captain.

But,
When we do not do our work,
The Captain does it all for us,
When we sit down and hide from the thunderstorm,
The Captain sacrifices His life on the deck holding that mast steady so the ship won’t sink,
When we take enough food for ourselves each meal,
The Captain serves his crew before He eats.

That is The Captain Of The SS Js. Christ.
Always there to keep us safe from the hurricanes,
Always there to lend a helping hand when we need help,
Always serving His crew,
Sacrificing His life to keep the ship safe so we do not die.

A true leader, serves his teammates.
Greater love has no one than this, than he who lays down his life for his friends. (John 15:13)

Do you want that Captain to sail your boat? Or do you wanna sail your own boat?

Not by my strength, but by His.

In the words of Joshua Wong,

My God is Awesome.

Express…

April 6, 2010 - Leave a Response

I wonder….

Why words on a screen cannot explain how i feel sometimes. Like this morning, its 6.45 a.m. I’m listening to Beautiful Savior and As the verse goes ‘Jesus, Beautiful Savior, God of All Majesty…’, i just feel like blogging about how true that is. But, if only i were there facing you only could i fully express How great God is! It is so hard for me to just write it all down, because sometimes, as someone reads these words they might just read it in a monotonous way, and that is not the way words are supposed to be read. We are supposed to read with emotion, enthusiasm. When we sing songs, we read the words and sing with emotion but when some of us read a book, we just monotone it down to become another boring thing. When we read God’s word, is it boring? When we worship God, is it boring? God’s word is in the Bible, when we worship Him, all the words are from the Bible.

Jesus:

He is indeed The Beautiful Savior,

He is indeed God of All Majesty,

He is indeed The Risen King,

He is The Lamb Of God,

He is Holy and Righteous,

He is indeed The Blessed Redeemer,

He is indeed The Bright Morning Star,

All the heavens shout His praise,

He is indeed Wonderful,

His name is indeed Above every name,

And His name is exalted High!

P/S: If this post made no whatever sense at all i’m sorry cause its kinda early and i was kind of blur…

But down to the core, words express only how much the reader wants them to express. I cannot change the way people read words.

Calvin

Heavenly Adrenalin!

April 3, 2010 - Leave a Response

I couldn’t sleep last night! Good Friday night, I was tossing n turning throughout the whole night! My upstairs neighbours were making so much noise at 330a.m.!! so, i got out of my bed at 630 and started to play my guitar. Feeling woozy and tired, but to my amazement, throughout the whole day, God gave me strength and i felt like i had taken an adrenalin shot that could last forever. I even went to floorball tonight! It was amazing! My hectic schedule that started at 12 till 9 at night was accomplished and i came back still with abit of juice left. Just enough to talk to my friend, Syaza on msn, write this post, do quiet time and type this blog post.

But, there was one feeling last night that just made me wanna get up and just worship God. My computer was on and the song ‘I Just Want You’ by Planetshakers was on. I just felt like worshipping God and crying out that i needed Him so much throughout my life. I missed out. =/ I wish i wasn’t so lazy that i just covered my face with my pillow and tried to sleep. An attempt that failed.

The song talked about God’s love that was so great and so amazing. His love that cannot be found anywhere else except in Him. God’s love is so amazing that it can make a person just feel like worshipping him in the middle of the night at 4 a.m.

“This is the love i have found,
and with this love I am found”

Knowing my Father’s heart is the best in life.
On that day, Good Friday, My Father gave His son, Jesus out of LOVE to die on that cross. Knowing that He was to take up all the sin of the world on His shoulders and be the ultimate sacrifice. Was tortured, and crucified.

But, on Easter, My Lord was ressurected from the dead. My Lord, overcame death.

Sleeping tonight? I don’t know…. I hope so. =)

“Never could I comprehend,
the love You so freely gave”

Calvin.

New Toys… =)

March 31, 2010 - Leave a Response

Hello! =)

God is so amazing! He has blessed me with 2 new toys to play with in 1 month! =D hehehe…. One, is a Takamine and another, an Epiphone Les Paul. Thank You, Lord for blessing me with new toys, may they be used to glorify your name in worship! =)

Picture timme!!!

First up, Takamine!

Its a…

G series, EG510S

Rosewood sides, Cedar top

TK40 EQ.

Ahhh!! *Hallelujah*! =)

Next, Epiphone Les Paul

Its Mahogany wood (explains the bassy sound from the pickups)

Kinda brownish finish

PRS pickups ( was changed by my uncle..*he syok sendiri*)

*gleams* =D heh heh..

My Prayer: Lord, thank You for these blessings that You have given me. Let me use these blessings to be a blessing to others and also to glorify Your name. Let these blessings be tools for Your work and for worshipping You. Amen.

Next trip to Singapore : Target: White Stratocaster! =D hehehe….

Toy list:

1. Taylor Acoustic!

2. Fender American Stratocaster (White)

3. Gibson Les Paul Standard (Black)

4.Boss Delay

5.Hot Cake

6.Boss Tuner ( Need!)

7.Bigger house 4 bigger amp!! =D heh heh heh. =D

Wohoo~

Cheers!

Calvin,

Everything I once held dear, I now count as loss….

March 20, 2010 - Leave a Response

Hard to do, easy to say… God is just amazing.

He gave the most precious thing to die for us on Redemption’s Hill, Jesus.

His Blood was spilled.

and, yet….

Things of the world, things that matter to us most in this world, we cannot let go and count as loss,

It is a hard process of dying to one’s self. I sat down and thought to myself.

God gave something so dear to Him, and why cant we give up even something that is dear to us in this world that is so small, for him.

Paul, said in Philippians 3: 7 -11:

‘But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost ALL THINGS. I consider then RUBBISH, that I may gain Christ and be focused in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ-the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. I want to know Christ and the power of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like Him in His death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.

He would be glad to lose everything for just the sake of knowing Christ. Yet, we take for granted this give Christ has given of knowing Him.

Dying to the flesh, losing all the flesh has to offer, just to know Christ.

As I read that  verse, I cried, just knowing that I cannot even do this.

Knowing Christ is the best thing one can have.

Just Knowing my Lord and Savior, should be my number one priority.

Die to self?

I cannot do it alone. Only with God, Through God and By God.

Everything is God Given.

Only Skin Deep…

March 12, 2010 - Leave a Response

You only start realizing You’re wearing skin when you start feeling anything…

Skin is only a cover up we use to block ourselves out from reality….

When you take off that skin, then you only start seeing yourself for who you are…

God Sees us for who we are..


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February 28, 2010 - Leave a Response

Tomorrow’s Exam! first form4 exam… heh heh.. =P yea!! Lord, please give me wisdom and please help me to remember what i’ve learnt.

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I haven’t been journaling lately… =/ Gotta pick up the pace..

Off early,

Calvin

Nothing interesting about this post.. not much.. =]

All By Him, For Us.

February 17, 2010 - Leave a Response

I was listening to Lifehouse – Everything on youtube. I came across the Passion Of The Christ version of the song. Seeing Jesus, the man that died for all our sins being tortured and crucified on that cross made me cry. I could imagine the feeling of Jesus when he was seperated from God by taking the sins of the world on His shoulders… It was heart-breaking. Being seperated from God.

Matthew 27:45-46 : From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over the land. 46 About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, ‘My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?’

Made me think, This man, Jesus took on all the weight of the world, was seperated from God, for us, for me. For everyone. A self-sacrifice so great He had to be left alone on that blood-soaked cross, by himself, in excruciating pain. Seeing my Lord and Savior being nailed and flogged made my eyes tear.

But,

The worst pain that came to mind was he was seperated from God. When that thought came in, it hurt so bad deep within. Worse than any other pain. My heart ached just imagining how Jesus felt on that cross.

Picked from Lifehouse – Everything: ‘And how can I stand here with You, and not be moved by You? Would You tell me how could it be any better than this?’

Ultimately,

It was All By Him, For Us. Amazing Love, How Can It Be? That You, My King, Would Die For Me.

New Blogskin! =)

February 15, 2010 - Leave a Response

So glad i can finally edit pics and change my blogskins.. =D hehehe……. wohoo!!

P/S: The picture on top is not off the net. Took it at aussie land with my camera. =P CHEERS!