Sunday, 23rd August, 2009 (3:59)
I was planning to sleep, I couldn’t. Why? There was something bugging me. I had a flashback, I was on the way back home in Aiching’s car. She asked, ‘ Not blogging anymore? ‘ I said, ‘ Nothing mcuh to blog about when everything’s going so “well” ‘.
Well, everything hadn’t been so well. Just found out. As I was lying on that bed, God put this song in my head. Its Planetshakers – Fall in This Place:
Verse1
Take me to the place lord
Where there`s nothing else but me and you
Longing for your presence
I know that you are calling me to you
Pre chorus
Here i stand
And long for your embrace
Nothing else
Could ever take your place
Chorus
Come holy spirit
Fall in this place
I need more and more of you
Fill me again with the power of your spirit
Lord i`m crying out for
More and more of you
Bridge
Lord i`m crying out for
More and more of you
Tears rolled down my cheeks, i got up ran to the computer, turned on my music player clicked a Planetshakers song and played it. It was Planetshakers – Weight Of The World. I needed God’s reviving touch so bad. Come Holy Spirit, Fall In This Place, I NEED MORE AND MORE OF YOU.
These past few days, I couldn’t feel God at all. Cause I was blocking myself out. I was too busy, I don’t want to do that again. It kills. It kills the spirit. If only I could express how much pain it feels like to now be able to feel God, i would express it. Its like losing the most valuable thing in life. I needed his comfort and touch. This whole month i’ve been thinking, what if i did this,what will people think, what if.. what if. I Don’t wanna think about that anymore. I Don’t wanna care what others think about me anymore. Its about what God thinks. Search my heart, Lord. I wanna grow into what You want me to be……
Nothing Else Could Ever Take Your Place, Lord.
By Grace, By Love, All, By God.
Just Me,
Calvin
