8/2/2009|| 5.35 p.m.
A Day To Remember..
As my mom had a call at 5.30 in the evening, we rushed to my great grandma’s house. We had news she was getting weaker and weaker, and would not last the night… Jumped into the car, taking nothing more, than the clothes on our backs, and our normal belongings..
On, the way it thought so hard on how my grandma would go away. I had a thought, now she’s going Home first, not us. Usually, before we go back home at night we would tell our great grandma, ‘Ah Chor, wa tui hor seng, ma chai ko lai, ah?’ Then she would give us that warm smile and say, yea.. The next day, the same thing… Till that Sunday, all our goodbyes compiled together used in one breath, i was thinking.. Now its her turn to go back first. I could imagine she saying, ‘Calvin, wa tui hor seng, ah’, i could imagine her naming everyone of our family members and telling them she’s going home first.. I cried and i was listening to a song by Altered Frequency, the chorus went like:
Hold my Hand,
And help me stand,
Give me the strength,
To walk again.
As I sat in that passenger seat crying my eyes out, my mom tried comforting me, saying, ‘Hey, dun cry so much, after we go there she hasn’t breathed her last breath yet, how?’
That made me laugh a little..
15 minutes later, as we were near Free School, we got a call… My great grandma had left us, breathed her last 3 breaths on this earth.
I reached her house ran in, and saw my great grandma lying there all dressed up. She picked her own clothes to wear after she died..
I ran upstairs to my uncle’s room, i cried so hard i started pulling my hair and hitting my head. I was so sad, i couldn’t tell her i was going back home and seeing her the other day, just to tell her those same words i would tell her every night.
A few weeks before she died, she was still concious, I sat right beside her, holding her hands, and talking to her. She told me, ‘tak chek ho, ho, ah, calvin, lu form 3 liao’,
Seeing her suffering was not a beautiful sight… When she got a last stroke she was calling my name, my auntie told her i was in school… if i had known, i would have ran back to her house that day. My great grandma was like the magnet of the whoel family, she would keep us all together and alive.
Now, i don’t know what’s going to happen..
Well, i know She’s in a better place now.
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A great life She ran,
To follow His one plan,
To also Take His hand,
So, that he can help us Stand again….
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TAN LIEW SIM,
A follower of Christ,
A mother,
A grand mother,
A great grandmother.
Till we meet again, Ah Chor,
Till we meet again….
Thank You, Lord for my great grandma..
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