Archive for December, 2008

Another door closed for His will…

Let me tell u a story…

I told God, if its right to like this person, You open the door, just around.. 4 days later.. The door closed on me, hit me hard in the face and left me bruised… God told me something…

Now, is not a time to get into situations like this… Continue your walk with Me… I’ll bring the perfect person for you when the time is right…

 

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Wanna know how the door closed on me?

It all happened this morning, December 23rd 2008, 9.22 a.m, this person wanted to follow us back down to Penang when we were going to come back from KL. Lawrence said he’s fine.. Its up to me to make the decesion and come back to him and we would disscuss it together. I thought, sure, this person could follow us down.. So, we discussed it in the car.. He put me in such a tough situation where either way i turned i’d still fall into that big pile of shit right there… So, as i walked up the flight of stairs to my house, i realized.. God just answered me.. The answer was no… Lawrence said, its time to start thinking… I came back, had a feeling to blog this… Jared.. See ya this Friday, i’ll talk to you about it. =] Lawrence, thanks for helping God close that door or else there would be alot of shit happening.. heh heh…

 

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My Prayer

My prayer… Lord, when? I’m not sure.. But, Lord.. Is it wrong to like a person? I’m not sure… I can go on in life for you, Lord.. Just fill this hole deep within my heart… I don’t want to have this hole in my heart so long…

And hey, Amanda, if you’ve read this, then now you know what God has in plan… I love you alot, as a friend and as a bro. =`] Greater things are yet to come.. Please pray for me as I will for you.. Help me pray that God will guide me in my walk with Him and use me for His work.. I will be praying for you as well, just tell me what you want me to pray for you.  =]

 

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Back To Being Normal?

Back To Being Normal?
Don’t think so…

Wanna make a change?
Yes…

Easy to say? Hard to do… These paticular words have to be engraved in our hearts and our heads before we can actually do it… I mean.. I for one am hard to cling on about stuff… Mostly I am a person who takes in alot of hurt and compiles it in so no one knows… (Now you know why sometimes i’m like that =] ) I’ve been through so much hurt in life and i’ve hurt others so much…

No more! i DON’T WANT TO HURT OTHERS!! I dun mind if i get hurt… I take in hurt like a sponge… You just have to squeeze me and i can start letting it all out..

So, now? I wanna change.. I still will take in hurt, i still will please others.. but.. I wanna lift that hurt to God.. He knows best… But sometimes… When i wanna let it out.. its hard…

Strolls in the house compound, going out to see what God has created, doesn’t work much… Everytime I get flashbacks of my bad memories… My emotions just turn 180 degrees… I gotta stop… Give it all to God.

Wanna make a change?
Yes! I Do!

Back To Normal?
I am still yet to answer that…

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