CaLvIn’S BlOg

More To Life….

Ever thought to yourself, “There must be more than this… There must be more to this life.”

After one cold rainy Sunday watching Transformers 2, a movie I had waited 6 months to watch… That night, as I was on my way back home, I had a feeling of discomfort in my heart… I was thinking, “There must be more to life than just going out with friends, eating good food, having luxuries of life… God, why am I having such a discomforting time after I went out with my friends, ate good food, and saw an amazing movie? Why, Lord, Why?”

Then I thought to myself, I’m missing out on something, this amazing everlasting fulfillment in life that can take away all discomforts… It is God’s love. I know it’s always there, but why don’t I feel it??

Why??
I took up my guitar, and started to worship God, tears began to roll down my cheeks, I could feel that peace in my heart.
It’s like when that amazing moment you’ve been waiting for for so long has finally come…
When you’ve been waiting so long, it comes. You feel the peace and fulfillment in your heart…
Then as I was flicking through the Bible, I came across 1 Corinthians 13
Love Is The Greatest.
The part I couldn’t understand was…. Why was I smiling as I cried?

I wish I knew more and more about love.
God’s love…

Just got to keep on asking God.

Departing with words of wisdom;

13. Three things will last forever-faith, hope and love-and the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13:13

Just me, Calvin..

20th June 2009

A loss today, a birthday, and a prayer answered.

Thank you God.. =]

A loss and A Birthday

The loss of Joshua Chuah’s aunt on his birthday was striking..

but at least She gave him a great birthday present today. She went back to the Lord….

For the prayer answered…
I’ve been praying to God:
Lord, help me to feel your love.. your comfort, your warmth.. i just can’t feel your presence nowadays.. why??
Surely enough as i walked out of my room, i checked my restraunt city, then wet straight to grab the guitar and worship God.
It was amazing.. =)

As i began to sing,
“Amazing love, how can it be,
That You, My King would die for me,
Amazing love, I KNOW ITS TRUE,
Its my joy to honour You.”

Especially the part where Its true. That struck my heart so deep. Like God was saying he’s still here and he loves me. Amazing… Just lost for words. I was crying and smiling.. Its was so Good..

Jesus loves us, this we KNOW,
For the Bible tells us so,
Little wants to Him belong,
They Are weak, BUT He is Strong!

Yes,
Jesus loves us,
Yes,
Jesus loves us.
The Bible tells us so…

I know if you think this song is childish,
It has alot of meaning,
Although it is very srtaight and has little words to say,
Its meaningful…
Amazing love…

A calvin-cubicle….

Calvin.

The truth hurts, but… to tell the truth…
I like it!!!

I like to better myself by getting to know my weaknesses… well, as i read in a book, How People Grow, truth helps us in our spiritual and mental growth.

God wants us to live in reality,
life’s not always easy,
the world is full of things,
we just have to face the truth.

=)

Whee~~

Questions rose in my head as i was on my way back home today…

Was today a good day? Was i living well? Or just another day wasted?
I mean, i got my excercise i love that, but.. Isn’t life just more than just excercising, playing games, or just lazing around.
I mean, everyday passes so fast, when you know it, after monday you’re already in thursday then, the next thing is, you’re in sunday. Its crazy, i mean, i get 24 hours a day to live a life pleasing to God. Its hard! 24 hours passes so fast. In the morning im playing my guitar in church the next thing i know, im at home at night thinking of the next day. I mean, in those 24 hours have i been just wasting it?

This feeling started off when i thought, ‘ everyone else around me is having such a great time, relationships, going oout with friends, having great times, things to talk about. aand sometimes i feel like i just left the world for a day or two totally cut off.. I mean it hurts, but i try to find my ppeace in God.

I mean i havent had a relationship in 3 years cause i don’t want to simply just go into relationships and break in like, what a month or two, i mean sometimes i feel like… i just want someone to hold tight in my arms, to hug, and to love.
And then there’s this little voice in my head saying, Calvin, find you peace in me, find your love in me, that everlasting love. One day, ill bring that person. Then i remember God’s everlasting love for me. But these thoughts in my head keep on hitting me again and again.. and the same thing happens and i thought today, God has been helping me to overcome this stupid loniness, and what have I been doing? just going on and forgetting everything that he did. this is human nature, we fail to remember God that is such a faithful God, he comforts us in our hard times, and helps us through when we fall in that pile of shit. He picks us up, he cleans us and puts us back on our feet, and what do we do? Forget!

Disturbing are these thoughts in my mind..
More reason to ask God, whether i am living a life pleasing to Him..

In a calvin-cubical.

Calvin.

Come to think of it…
Nowadays since PMR i have been lacking of anything much happening…
But just one day, as i wanted to take an afternoon nap, I had head pains..
And when i opened my eyes, I heard someone say, ‘Calvin’
Moreover, there was no1 home with me. My mom had gone for dinner.
I quickly got up, asked God, ‘ Yes, Lord what do You want from me?’
He said ‘ Get up, take your Bible, I want to talk to you’
I rushed to get a Bible and he told me to turn on some music.. and listen to the song God Is moving.
He talked to me through Ephesians chapter 5. living as children of Light.
I thought alot, i started to praise God and worship HIm, that was the most exciting worship I have ever experienced.
=D

haha….

Well,
We need God to help us through..
Not to just depend on ourselves..
Cause, practically we’re nothing without God…
=D

Hee….
Cheers!!
just a normal post…
nothing big happened…
not yet.
=D

ill keep updating…

Im learning to breathe…
Learnin’ to fall…

Makes me able to live a better life when i choke abit and get a few bruises..
=]

NItes, all…

Just me,

Calvin

We went to Uncle Richard’s house for dinner on Sunday. =D

It was so funny!!

=D

we had a great time… Nick was stuffing himself with food at the dinner table. He was like ‘Cal i’m gonna beat you at eating’ and i wan like ‘riiiiiggghhhhhhtttt…’ ahahah…

=D

so, then we went to play tekken 5. Amazingly, my first time playing and i WON!!!

=D cool, eh?!!

yea!!

=P

so, den we went to nick’s room to listen to……. SWITCHFOOT!!!!! YEA!!!! =D

hahah!!

we were so bored, that we did some stupid stuff… =P like :

hahah!!!

=P

so, thus ends the day.. =P

Happy Chinese New Year ya’ll!

Being Myself,

Cal.

Well,
recently, i asked my mentor, Jared on how to respect women..

Well, a tip for u guys out there…
It may be hard, but its the only way.
You start learning to love/respect women is all learnt when we are at home.. by respecting and loving our moms!!
=D

cool, eh?
Very true, tell you this, as we learn to respect and show love to our moms we learn how to take care of our girlfriends/wives in the future…
You mom is still a woman, you can’t change that..

So, learnt something new today?
I want you guys to go back and thing about it..

Being Myself,
Calvin